So very many people over the last few days have asked me how I am feeling. And especially how Cora is feeling. The answer has been spinning around in my mind for days. I'm not quite sure how to answer that. In a way, we're excited for the surgery. To see my sweet Cora in pain daily is hard. Its hard for her to sit for long and also hard for her to stand. She get sore very quickly and is constantly shifting positions and stretching herself out. Knowing she will be "fixed" brings us excitement. Knowing that after her recouperation, she will feel so much better is very much something to look forward to. This has been looming over us for months and it will be so nice to have it over and move on. We're nervous. There is alot of unknown with this surgery. I fear I didn't ask the doctor as many questions as I should have in the times we've had together. I have a bazillion questions that the internet isn't answering and I'm afraid we won't ever know the answers until we are in that exact position. I'm very much a "planner" and don't enjoy not knowing exactly how things will be. We're humbled. So many people, even from across the country, have reached out to me and my family. Cards, emails, phone calls, and gifts have been sent for Cora. Each item, each act of love has a special meaning and holds loads of comfort and love for my family. Many, many prayers and kind thoughts have been sent our way, each with a message of love and peace. It helps tremendously. But me? I'm very confused. Honestly, am I making too big of a deal about this??? People have had this surgery for decades. Did it seriously merit starting a blog?? People tell me everything will be okay, that I need to stop worrying. Am I drawing too much attention to our family, and instead should just keep it all to ourselves? Does someone need to pull me aside and shut me up?? I hate to cause a fuss. But, a little voice in the back of my head reminds me how helpful scoliosis blogs and vlogs were to our family when we first started this journey. If I can just help one person... This week will be full of running errands, buying last minute stuff (ie, makeup wipes because she can't bend over for months to wash her face and also extra pillows to surround herself with, OTC medicines to help with side effects of major surgery and all those new books and movies to keep her busy), getting her room ready, doctors visits, waiting for Grandma's relief to come, and more time than I can measure spent on my knees. Thank you for humoring me. Thank you for your comments and well wishes. I direct them all to Cora so she can tuck them in her pocket for the hard times. 3 days until surgery...
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Lisa
5/3/2017 03:13:45 pm
Thank you for sharing your story. We have a similar story with my daughter, Emily. These girls are very brave and courageous for going through such a tough surgery. I would like to believe that we have made the right decision and that they live long, healthy and happy lives. Best wishes to you and Cora.
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